Tuesday, August 01, 2006

New beginnings

I woke this morning and after doing bikram , I realised, its time to not be sad anymore, I am so grateful for all of the new and amazing friends I have made, I should be really happy and I am. I am eager to share my journey with you, but you have to promise to share yours. Thank you my new friends, you have made me believe again. In asian culture the frog is a symbol of ascension and good fortune as it leaps through life, its time. thank you


Blogger andie said...

Mr. Breton--
I admire how quickly you have gotten over being eliminated. I dream of being brave enough to actually go on the show. You are my inspiration, and I love you for it. Thank you for being you,
please write back:

11:17 AM  
Blogger Sophie said...

It's nice to see that you're happy again. Wish I lived closer to New York (and wasn't so afraid crowds!). You truely are an inspiration to anyone. {o_~}

Sophie D.

12:46 PM  
Blogger stephentennant said...

What is bikram and how do you do it?

So pleased to hear you're feeling happy. I hope you know that so many of us, even though we've never met you in person and probably never will, love you and the person you are. All good things to you, Malan.

1:07 PM  
Blogger chombowombo said...

We all hope that you are happy. Just reading your blog every day makes me happy because it is filled with words of encouragement and hope. We are all here for you, no matter what.

Hope you have a good day

p.s. what is bikram?

1:29 PM  
Blogger Marlaina816 said...

Hey Malan,

Yeah so right now I'm totally with stephentennant and chombowombo..... what the heck is Bikram? Sorry I live in Maine, and were a little behind the times here. lol.

Its nice to see that your in good spirits and things are going well for you and things are begining to look up. I know how hard it is to get up and dust yourself off after a big set back in your life. You should be proud of your courage and inner strength! Just remember its o.k. to be sad and angry once and a while. Just don't let it take hold of you. Always remember your dreams and keep positive thoughts. (I know easier said then done, right?) Also remember to take time for yourself once and a while and surround yourself with postive things and also indulge in some of your favorite things (Mine being that of Chocolate. ;-)) and don't feel guilty about it.

So anyway, its good to here about how things are going and if you get a spare minute this week just send me an e-mail and let me know what Bikram is K? Marlaina23@hotmail.com Take care of yourself, my thoughts and prayers are with you!

Your Brandy

1:55 PM  
Blogger Brandon said...

I think you have a wonderful sense of couture. I would definitely buy your clothes. You also have a beautiful face and personality. Its a shame they didnt let you stay as long. Be well. Alas, you can also see my blog at Juliusspeaks.blogspot.com

2:04 PM  
Blogger Evie said...

Is Bikram the type of yoga you do in a very hot room? I get the different types of Yoga confused... I need a yoga dictionary!

I'm glad that you're finding happiness and peace.

Namaste, as you Yogis say!


2:58 PM  
Blogger Evie said...

Is Bikram the type of yoga you do in a very hot room? I get the different types of Yoga confused... I need a yoga dictionary!

I'm glad that you're finding happiness and peace.

Namaste, as you Yogis say!


2:58 PM  
Blogger Positano06 said...

I'm so glad that you are feeling happy again; I hope you understand how much love and respect there is for you and your work. Keep up the bikram (it's yoga, friends)--mens sana in corpore sano.

2:58 PM  
Blogger Ada said...

Yes, you're definitely just entering the best part of your life right now! I read in an interview with Tim Gunn that he was so amazed because he'd thought that at age 50, his life had already reached it's peak...until the show took off and he realized he was just starting the most exciting time of his life! So it is with you; your genius has been maturing over years and is now just beginning to take off, and it's a pleasure that we are all around to share it with you!

P.S. For those who hadn't looked it up yet, bikram is indeed a challenging form of yoga, done in a heated room--much more strenuous than the mellower hatha yoga); Malan must be in great shape!

3:01 PM  
Blogger Susnot said...

I was so sad when they eliminated you. Of course I might be slightly biased because when I heard you were born in Taiwan I became an instant fan (because I am Taiwanese and was born there too, although I live in the US now, heh). But furthermore I really loved your designs on the show. I don't think they could have appreciated your dress. But I thought it was beautiful and quite unique. I look forward to reading more about you in the future and seeing your star shine brighter. I completely agree with Tim Gunn. I think we will see great things from you. (No pressure of course!)

3:07 PM  
Blogger Positano06 said...

Thanks for clarifying, Ada :)It's 100 degrees in Chicago right now; I couldn't imagine doing any strenuous exercise in that kind of heat.

Mr. Breton, I must ask, is that a picture of a poisonous frog (poison arrow frog)? Does it have its own special significance?

3:11 PM  
Blogger MDM said...

I, like others wonder at the mention of bikram . . . . I would ask for you to expand on that, but chances are, my curiosity will overtake me before you ever get the chance to read this.

And now, I'm surely mirroring the thoughts and words of others when I say that I was so disappointed and saddened by your premature eviction from the show. However, as I'm seeing in these other responses above me, I am very glad that you are striding forward. I wish for myself fortitude like what you possess. Alas and alack.

Eventually, I will overcome my own shortcomings.

I celebrate the me yet to come, if I may borrow a bit from Fame. ;-)

In any case, I invite you to peruse my own site on blogger(though I rarely post on there), as well as my site on xanga (on which I post with greater frequency), and yes, even to e-mail me (both my e-mail and my xanga site being listed in my profile). If you're really bored. It would be a delight to hear from you personally. :-)

All that aside, I look forward to happy posts on here from you :-)


3:16 PM  
Blogger c ceres merry said...

Malan, am I strange for thinking that frog looks like he is made of white and dark chocolate? :) If you ever enter into the realm of the high end chocolataire make a yummy chocolate frog unless that's really too much :).

You also need to design a little charm for a necklace or bracelet, an MB or something to represent you like the YSL Gucci or LV logo so folks can wear you like that (scarf, necklace purse, little backpack)..- I am not a t-shirt person (no offense to those that are, its just not me personally :) )

Today just running errands in mid-town felt like some sort of torturous exersize..
Nice to know somewhere in this dear city you are also working hard toward your creative dreams :)

3:39 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

When one door closes, another one opens. I'm glad you're not sad anymore. Only good things await you!

3:41 PM  
Blogger XtremePear said...

I'm glad you're feeling better--in Oriental Medicine, you'd be in the "water phase"--where you find wisdom after grief. I look forward to your posts.

Acupuncture student :)

5:01 PM  
Blogger Jules said...

Once again, you show us that a beautiful spirit is hard to hold down.
Bless you in your journey.

5:59 PM  
Blogger Teresa said...

I'm really glad that you're looking on the brighter side of things now. Being optimistic is all in all a much better way to live. We all have our moments of sadness, but eventually something good and happy prevails. :] Keep pressing forward, as it seems that only good things are to come for you. :]


6:43 PM  
Blogger Samantha said...

Its good to get over sadness...because sadness sucks (for lack of better words at the time) I too look foward to you sharing your experiences with us, not many people actually take the time to thank people and share your journey with them.

6:43 PM  
Blogger market chippie said...

I love frogs. Heh, that's my oh-so-profound contribution to this wonderful self-discovery post/oasis of general Zen. But I do adore them. They bring me joy. Ah, the simple things...being happy is a good thing.

You have so many people alongside you as you make your journey. We're all in this together, to some extent, isn't that funny?

6:48 PM  
Blogger Shisei said...

Heyyyyy, isn't that a poison dart frog? I'm pretty sure I read National Geographic once saying those can kill a grown man with one touch. I think even though they're deadly though they're my favorite type of frog (I like the black and blue spotted ones) because they're so beautiful. Don't go touching one though lol!

Well I suppose frogs are a lot prettier than a massive pink elephant sitting on a lotus.

It's great though, to see the passion of someone who's willing to let the past be what it is, and step outside despite that, taking one step after another. The hope and strength you take will pass on to those around you.

No, thank YOU.

がんばってね マラン!
I'll be cheering you on every step of the way.

8:29 PM  
Blogger jessica said...

thats a pretty big step malan. good job, it takes a lot to get over such an ego blow, especially when it is so publicized. and even more so when its something that you love and want to do with your life. i got fired from my job working as an undergraduate research assistant doing theoretical astrophysics a while ago. my boss told me that i "wasn't capable of abstract thought" as well as a few other completely devastating things. i was pretty torn up over the whole thing. i know its not true, and i know the reason i was fired was because i just didn't know the computer language he wanted me to program in. but i'm still not really over it. perhaps i should take up bikram. think that would help? hah. i'll get over it someday. but i'm really glad that you are over your sadness. you are a great designer and are definitely not defined by a reality show.

8:34 PM  
Blogger ashley_marie1987 said...

Hello Malan,

My name is Ashley, and I'm 19, and a fashion design student at Massachusetts College of Art in Boston (I was accepted to Parsons, but couldn't afford it).
I loved your work and you style - you said on Project Runway you were inspired by "old Hollywood", and I can definately say I am too(I also love late victorian and Rococo influences as well)

You were instantly an inspiration to me. From your posts it sounds like you have overcome a lot of obstacles, and I admire you positivity. You seem like such a wonderful person with a good heart. I have not had an easy time getting to where I am today, and you have inspired me to try to be more positive as well.

I wish I could meet you someday - if you are ever in Boston let me know :) My email is Acollett05@aol.com - I would love to hear from you, and look forward to hearing more about you.

Love, Ashley

8:38 PM  
Blogger CandyisDandy said...

And we'll be here for you honey if you ever do need to be cheered back up.

8:38 PM  
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9:49 PM  
Blogger Liz said...

You are the sweetest thing! You never cease to impress me with your grace and faith in the world. My friend and I were talking about you on the phone today, about your sincerety and your beauty as a person. I'm not going to say never change because that would be ridiculous. But I know that the changes you will make will be the right ones and you will grow into an even lovelier person.

Good fortune to you!

9:53 PM  
Blogger actias luna said...

Lovely frog photo! I've just been observing the amazing tadpole-to-frog metamorphosis up close, in a tub on my kitchen counter (a mommy thing). I woke two days ago to find a tiny stubby-tailed green tree frog climbing right out of the tub.

I've been similarly watching caterpillars-into-butterflies all summer (also in my kitchen. Lots of life happening here!).

What started out as a science lesson for my son has fascinated me. Now I crave my own transformation. I'm ready to start the next phase, to step from the cozy cocoon of home and motherhood where I've been hiding happily for years. I'll dream and create for my own spirit again, not only for my children.

Best of luck with your new journey, Malan...seems like you may not have so far to go. Also, best wishes to all who share thoughts here.

10:26 PM  
Blogger Anyacat said...

I think you should look at it this way, the same people who found your design wanting, retained Angela--two weeks in a row! So what does that say about them? After all Project Runway is essentially a game show, of course, you were unceremoniously booted on TV in front of MILLIONS of viewers--but let's not dwell on that unpleasantness!

5:50 AM  
Blogger AbbyNormal said...

I looked this up on Google.
"Bikram yoga is done in a room heated to 105°F and accompanied by specific dialogue. People of all levels, ages and body types practice together..."
Good to hear you are moving on, Malan. I know about how devestating feelings of humiliation can feel. You never deserved to have that feeling induced in you, remember that if it resurfaces.

6:35 AM  
Blogger rachel from NJ said...

No reason to feel down, sweetie. There is a lot of love for you out there and a lot of care and support. Even if we never meet there are many who are sending you positivity and a lot of love. All of us are rooting for your new collection. Thank you for keeping us included!

6:53 AM  
Blogger basquette said...

Bikram, eh? I'm more a restorative yoga person myself but it surely does ease the little aches and pains of life, does it not? Also good for transformations. Well done, Malan. Well done.

7:45 AM  
Blogger emily said...

It is lovely that you are happy. It is so fabulous that you have the ability to accept what happened and move on because I think you are amazingly gifted and talented. Stay Fabulous!

8:52 AM  
Blogger girligirl101 said...

If I knew the asanas, I could have done bikram on my patio yesterday, it was so hot. It must take a good deal of discipline and persistence to keep up your bikram practice. I really admire your discipline and persistence and I wonder if those qualities have helped you succeed in so many very competitive fields. You’ve accomplished so much; I’m glad to hear you are putting sadness behind you. You have so much to be proud of, and you are quite an inspiration for me. I appreciate your positivity and encouragement for all your friends to reach their own goals.

9:11 AM  
Blogger It's Just Me........ said...

Hi Malan!

I'm glad you're very happy again. It's always great to be happy or cheerful when you're down. I've learned that a lot. As others said up here, I wish I could live in New York, too but I live in Connecticut. You're really an inspiration to all, especially to me, and keep the brilliant work! :)
please, please, please email me:

9:43 AM  
Blogger Marlaina816 said...

Hello again Malan,

I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you this morning. I was thinking that everything happens in life for a reason, to put you on the path where you need to be in life. So I think that PR served its purpose for you, but its now time to move on to other things, as you seem to be. I got a feeling in the pit of my gut while I was thinking about this. There is something thats going to come to you soon that is going to make you really happy in your life. I can feel it! :-) I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Your Brandy

9:55 AM  
Blogger Ides Childe said...

That reminds me, I need revisit to Bikram. My job's previous location had me down the block from their 49th St. studio in NYC, now we're soooo far away. The heat outside in summer and the heated room is a bit much...I got into Bikram during the winter of 2000--Snowy and Cold! I felt warm and floaty and stretchy. Bikram and Pilates together will make you a powerhouse. I've had some $$ problems lately, hence my job hunt but I SOOO want to return to both. However shall I fit into your gowns if I'm not floaty and sexy and stretchy? LOL! Om yoga is great too. The chanting and placement puts you in this place mentally--can't quite find the words, but your emotions do change. Mind and body...it's all connected. I adore frogs. I once had an emerald froggie brooch and the pin broke off. I have it somewhere...Glad to see your Gemini optimism is back. Drop me a line when you're not plotting your fashion week takeover...bonniebloo2002@yahoo.com

12:11 PM  
Blogger andie said...

Thank you so much for replying to my comments. I look forward to talking to you, if you would like.

1:49 PM  
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1:50 PM  
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1:50 PM  
Blogger Sister said...

I've been utterly charmed by you and look forward to hearing more of your journey

1:57 PM  
Blogger sa3371 said...

Hi again, Malan--

I agree with c ceres merry that you should design and sell some unique little items with your specific logo on it so that those of us who support you and your endeavours could carry it with us. Please do think about it.

I hope that you are well. It sounds like you are doing things that being you fulfillment and happiness, so that's good. What did you think of Katherine's dismissal last week? I know she didn't agree with your design when you worked together, but you seemed to be a good pair otherwise. Do you keep in touch?

Please take care.


3:10 PM  
Blogger Jessiqua said...

You are beautiful.

3:11 PM  
Blogger Katelynn said...

Darling Malan,

Thank you for allowing us all, your new friends, to be part of this journey with you--I am looking forward to what the future awaits! You are a very beautiful person inside and out. I will be there 1000% supporting you.

Very truly, Katelynn

5:45 PM  
Blogger Andrew Thornton said...

It is nice that everyone is glad that you're happy again. But being happy is just one phase of the journey. Sadness is a gift, just as much as happiness is. In some cultures, the frog-song is a prayer. In others, a summons for rain and thunder.

I personally don't believe that the goal in life should be bliss, but contentment that we are on this journey, come hell or high water.

6:13 PM  
Blogger B2K said...

I have seen the show.

I have seen the designs.

I have seen the man.

It's not a myth, your the real deal. Don't give up. It's only just begun.

7:15 PM  
Blogger Lilia said...

I adore reading your blog. I love how you are so upbeat about everything. It cheered me up, I am a way from home right now and miss my family, and when I read what you wrote it made my day a lile better. I also think it's very cool that you sing. From what you have said New York sounds very fun, kinda reminds me of Seattle, where I'm from.

Thank you for the uplifting

If you would like to write back my email is: peachykeen355@hotmail.com

9:15 PM  
Blogger WonderWoman said...

It's so enlightening to see how you've taken this!
I do yoga as well, and it can be very soothing to the soul.
I love it!
I heard the story you told about your mother and the patterns as a child. It's nice to know I'm not alone in that aspect.
You are quite an inspiration to me, truly!
Please write back-joseanddiana@gmail.com

7:12 AM  
Blogger FourthCanevin said...

Malan, I was so sad when you were eliminated--and am just getting around to finding a way to let you know--there were at least 6 others in my estimation that should have gone before you. Anyhow, reading through your blog--I find that you are being quite gracious and humble about all of this, which is quite refreshing.

OH I just wished to see more of your designs on the show! The brown gown was unfortunate, but I could see what you were trying to do, I loved the sketch...it's just all too sad to have you elimnated so early on.

It looks like things are going well for you none the less--so good!

Bon chance!

9:08 AM  
Blogger Kathleen said...

A new beginning. Thats actually what I'm doing for this school year. A new style, a new way of acting, and everything. I'm not bieng a poser, I'm being myself.

9:43 AM  
Blogger Anyacat said...

Well, apparently I have no sense of style and I hate Macy's and would never buy anything from that place, so I was not pleased that Angela won the challenge. Naturally, since I am so mean-spirited, I credit her victory to the sane and talented heads of her team. Ja only knows what would have happened had she been in her own. Tell me, true, Mr. Breton, wasn't Keith just a tad full of himself? I mean the guy did not seem to understand why he was tossed off the show--he even sounded as if they did it because the other designers were jealous.

I remain, faithfully yours, without taste and thoroughly amazed at the capacity of some people to fool themselves...

11:34 AM  
Blogger Christin said...


It is so apparent from reading all of the loving email responses here in your Blog that you are TRULY loved by so many! I think you are an inspiration to so many people who face adversity. You should ALWAYS hold your head high and remember that you are loved by all of us here on your Blog, and by so many more.

We are your "Darlings" and we are proud to be so. I enjoy so much coming to your blog and reading your words, and contributing my thoughts here. It makes me feel better knowing that I have some sort of connection with you. I'm sure I'm not the only one here who feels that way. This is a great forum for us to stay connected with you no matter where we are in the world. I think you are amazingly talented and should be very proud of all you have accomplished.

As always, I send you oceans of love, and wish you well!



4:36 PM  
Blogger JOOLZEY said...


When you were eliminated and cried, I cried, too, because I once had to move around a great deal and had to say "goodbye" more times than any child should ever have to.

My fiancé asked why I was crying, but I couldn't make him understand.

Some experiences have to be felt and not explained.

I hope that this is only the beginning of larger things for Malan Breton--the world needs your beauty and spirit.

4:51 PM  
Blogger B2K said...

I, also, was not sad to see Keith leave. What a cocky jerk! And I'm not too fond of Angela (her design aesthetic is atrocious)but I believe her outfit deserved to win.
Just out of curiousity, what would you have done for this challenge, were you still there?

5:04 PM  
Blogger Hephaestion said...

Truly, you made such a strong impression in two episodes of "Project Runway" that you did not need to win the competition. You made a FAR larger impression on the world than most contestants that make it to the final 3.

Perhaps something important is waiting for you, which you would have missed if you had been tied up on that show any longer.

As Scarlet O'Hara said, "Tomorrow is another day." Your tomorrows lead to a very bright future. I am so glad that more of us have now been introduced to your charm and talents.

5:58 PM  
Blogger Monique Maes said...

As Epictetus once said, "Men are disturbed not by tings that happen but by their opinions of the things that happen." The power of the human mind to see occurrences in a kaleidescope of points of view is absolutely amazing. It is also one of the hardest skills to learn as a human being, to step back and re-evaluate a situation that you have already judged as a sad/terrible/devastating one.
Anyhow, that is my opinion and I figure I should join everyone else in giving you your due praise. Your collection is breathtaking, as I am sure that you know already, and you could not have picked a better muse.
Keep being yourself, as you seem like a terribly wonderful person to be.

8:37 PM  
Blogger misty said...

Can I just say, they should have brought you back when Keith was asked to leave.

I would have loved to see more of your work through the challenges.

Good luck in all you do!

8:56 PM  
Blogger Acadine said...

You're allowed sadness, don't you know? Go ahead, take all the time you need to feel it, too. Know why? Because if you stuff it away it's just unfinished business you'll have to deal with later.

But when times up, it's up, and nobody but you should decide that. Sounds like you're at that point.

I see here you've asked us to share our journeys with you. You know what, Malan, that's a very unique request in the blogging world, let me tell you!
So, I just want to say how sweet of you to ask. But, for me, it'll have to be another time, another place, perhaps. I'm just stopping in to say hello for now. Goodness! Seems you've made quite an unforgettable impression if the PR message boards are to be taken seriously!

I'll check in again soon. In the meantime, enjoy your journey....yes, even the sadness is absolutely okay.


9:17 PM  
Blogger Kim said...


Good Luck to everything you do in life. You hit a soft spot in my heart while watching "Project Runway", because of how real you are, and you are loved by many. I am so excited to have found this site, because I just wanted to say you are a wonderful designer, and I hope one day to be able to see one of your shows live, and maybe even perhaps meet you!

You are Awesome!

12:52 AM  

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