Tuesday, August 01, 2006

New beginnings


I woke this morning and after doing bikram , I realised, its time to not be sad anymore, I am so grateful for all of the new and amazing friends I have made, I should be really happy and I am. I am eager to share my journey with you, but you have to promise to share yours. Thank you my new friends, you have made me believe again. In asian culture the frog is a symbol of ascension and good fortune as it leaps through life, its time. thank you

25 Comments:

Blogger CHWM said...

We all hope that you are happy. Just reading your blog every day makes me happy because it is filled with words of encouragement and hope. We are all here for you, no matter what.

Hope you have a good day
-Amber

p.s. what is bikram?

1:29 PM  
Blogger Brandon said...

I think you have a wonderful sense of couture. I would definitely buy your clothes. You also have a beautiful face and personality. Its a shame they didnt let you stay as long. Be well. Alas, you can also see my blog at Juliusspeaks.blogspot.com

2:04 PM  
Blogger Evie said...

Is Bikram the type of yoga you do in a very hot room? I get the different types of Yoga confused... I need a yoga dictionary!

I'm glad that you're finding happiness and peace.

Namaste, as you Yogis say!

L

2:58 PM  
Blogger Evie said...

Is Bikram the type of yoga you do in a very hot room? I get the different types of Yoga confused... I need a yoga dictionary!

I'm glad that you're finding happiness and peace.

Namaste, as you Yogis say!

L

2:58 PM  
Blogger Positano06 said...

I'm so glad that you are feeling happy again; I hope you understand how much love and respect there is for you and your work. Keep up the bikram (it's yoga, friends)--mens sana in corpore sano.

2:58 PM  
Blogger Sis said...

Yes, you're definitely just entering the best part of your life right now! I read in an interview with Tim Gunn that he was so amazed because he'd thought that at age 50, his life had already reached it's peak...until the show took off and he realized he was just starting the most exciting time of his life! So it is with you; your genius has been maturing over years and is now just beginning to take off, and it's a pleasure that we are all around to share it with you!

P.S. For those who hadn't looked it up yet, bikram is indeed a challenging form of yoga, done in a heated room--much more strenuous than the mellower hatha yoga); Malan must be in great shape!

3:01 PM  
Blogger Susnot said...

Hello!
I was so sad when they eliminated you. Of course I might be slightly biased because when I heard you were born in Taiwan I became an instant fan (because I am Taiwanese and was born there too, although I live in the US now, heh). But furthermore I really loved your designs on the show. I don't think they could have appreciated your dress. But I thought it was beautiful and quite unique. I look forward to reading more about you in the future and seeing your star shine brighter. I completely agree with Tim Gunn. I think we will see great things from you. (No pressure of course!)

3:07 PM  
Blogger Positano06 said...

Thanks for clarifying, Ada :)It's 100 degrees in Chicago right now; I couldn't imagine doing any strenuous exercise in that kind of heat.

Mr. Breton, I must ask, is that a picture of a poisonous frog (poison arrow frog)? Does it have its own special significance?

3:11 PM  
Blogger C Merry said...

Malan, am I strange for thinking that frog looks like he is made of white and dark chocolate? :) If you ever enter into the realm of the high end chocolataire make a yummy chocolate frog unless that's really too much :).

You also need to design a little charm for a necklace or bracelet, an MB or something to represent you like the YSL Gucci or LV logo so folks can wear you like that (scarf, necklace purse, little backpack)..- I am not a t-shirt person (no offense to those that are, its just not me personally :) )

Today just running errands in mid-town felt like some sort of torturous exersize..
Nice to know somewhere in this dear city you are also working hard toward your creative dreams :)

3:39 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

When one door closes, another one opens. I'm glad you're not sad anymore. Only good things await you!

3:41 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Once again, you show us that a beautiful spirit is hard to hold down.
Bless you in your journey.
Jules

5:59 PM  
Blogger Shisei said...

Heyyyyy, isn't that a poison dart frog? I'm pretty sure I read National Geographic once saying those can kill a grown man with one touch. I think even though they're deadly though they're my favorite type of frog (I like the black and blue spotted ones) because they're so beautiful. Don't go touching one though lol!

Well I suppose frogs are a lot prettier than a massive pink elephant sitting on a lotus.

It's great though, to see the passion of someone who's willing to let the past be what it is, and step outside despite that, taking one step after another. The hope and strength you take will pass on to those around you.

No, thank YOU.

がんばってね マラン!
I'll be cheering you on every step of the way.

8:29 PM  
Blogger jessica said...

thats a pretty big step malan. good job, it takes a lot to get over such an ego blow, especially when it is so publicized. and even more so when its something that you love and want to do with your life. i got fired from my job working as an undergraduate research assistant doing theoretical astrophysics a while ago. my boss told me that i "wasn't capable of abstract thought" as well as a few other completely devastating things. i was pretty torn up over the whole thing. i know its not true, and i know the reason i was fired was because i just didn't know the computer language he wanted me to program in. but i'm still not really over it. perhaps i should take up bikram. think that would help? hah. i'll get over it someday. but i'm really glad that you are over your sadness. you are a great designer and are definitely not defined by a reality show.

8:34 PM  
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9:49 PM  
Blogger somethingsomething said...

You are the sweetest thing! You never cease to impress me with your grace and faith in the world. My friend and I were talking about you on the phone today, about your sincerety and your beauty as a person. I'm not going to say never change because that would be ridiculous. But I know that the changes you will make will be the right ones and you will grow into an even lovelier person.

Good fortune to you!
Liz

9:53 PM  
Blogger listeningmoth said...

Lovely frog photo! I've just been observing the amazing tadpole-to-frog metamorphosis up close, in a tub on my kitchen counter (a mommy thing). I woke two days ago to find a tiny stubby-tailed green tree frog climbing right out of the tub.

I've been similarly watching caterpillars-into-butterflies all summer (also in my kitchen. Lots of life happening here!).

What started out as a science lesson for my son has fascinated me. Now I crave my own transformation. I'm ready to start the next phase, to step from the cozy cocoon of home and motherhood where I've been hiding happily for years. I'll dream and create for my own spirit again, not only for my children.

Best of luck with your new journey, Malan...seems like you may not have so far to go. Also, best wishes to all who share thoughts here.

10:26 PM  
Blogger Anyacat@aol.com said...

I think you should look at it this way, the same people who found your design wanting, retained Angela--two weeks in a row! So what does that say about them? After all Project Runway is essentially a game show, of course, you were unceremoniously booted on TV in front of MILLIONS of viewers--but let's not dwell on that unpleasantness!

5:50 AM  
Blogger FuzzerWuzzer said...

That reminds me, I need revisit to Bikram. My job's previous location had me down the block from their 49th St. studio in NYC, now we're soooo far away. The heat outside in summer and the heated room is a bit much...I got into Bikram during the winter of 2000--Snowy and Cold! I felt warm and floaty and stretchy. Bikram and Pilates together will make you a powerhouse. I've had some $$ problems lately, hence my job hunt but I SOOO want to return to both. However shall I fit into your gowns if I'm not floaty and sexy and stretchy? LOL! Om yoga is great too. The chanting and placement puts you in this place mentally--can't quite find the words, but your emotions do change. Mind and body...it's all connected. I adore frogs. I once had an emerald froggie brooch and the pin broke off. I have it somewhere...Glad to see your Gemini optimism is back. Drop me a line when you're not plotting your fashion week takeover...bonniebloo2002@yahoo.com
xoxoxo!

12:11 PM  
Blogger Andrew Thornton said...

It is nice that everyone is glad that you're happy again. But being happy is just one phase of the journey. Sadness is a gift, just as much as happiness is. In some cultures, the frog-song is a prayer. In others, a summons for rain and thunder.

I personally don't believe that the goal in life should be bliss, but contentment that we are on this journey, come hell or high water.

6:13 PM  
Blogger WonderWoman said...

It's so enlightening to see how you've taken this!
I do yoga as well, and it can be very soothing to the soul.
I love it!
I heard the story you told about your mother and the patterns as a child. It's nice to know I'm not alone in that aspect.
You are quite an inspiration to me, truly!
Please write back-joseanddiana@gmail.com

7:12 AM  
Blogger Gigi said...

Malan, I was so sad when you were eliminated--and am just getting around to finding a way to let you know--there were at least 6 others in my estimation that should have gone before you. Anyhow, reading through your blog--I find that you are being quite gracious and humble about all of this, which is quite refreshing.

OH I just wished to see more of your designs on the show! The brown gown was unfortunate, but I could see what you were trying to do, I loved the sketch...it's just all too sad to have you elimnated so early on.

It looks like things are going well for you none the less--so good!

Bon chance!
Mairead

9:08 AM  
Blogger Anyacat@aol.com said...

Well, apparently I have no sense of style and I hate Macy's and would never buy anything from that place, so I was not pleased that Angela won the challenge. Naturally, since I am so mean-spirited, I credit her victory to the sane and talented heads of her team. Ja only knows what would have happened had she been in her own. Tell me, true, Mr. Breton, wasn't Keith just a tad full of himself? I mean the guy did not seem to understand why he was tossed off the show--he even sounded as if they did it because the other designers were jealous.

I remain, faithfully yours, without taste and thoroughly amazed at the capacity of some people to fool themselves...

11:34 AM  
Blogger Hephaestion said...

Truly, you made such a strong impression in two episodes of "Project Runway" that you did not need to win the competition. You made a FAR larger impression on the world than most contestants that make it to the final 3.

Perhaps something important is waiting for you, which you would have missed if you had been tied up on that show any longer.

As Scarlet O'Hara said, "Tomorrow is another day." Your tomorrows lead to a very bright future. I am so glad that more of us have now been introduced to your charm and talents.

5:58 PM  
Blogger maryclev said...

Can I just say, they should have brought you back when Keith was asked to leave.

I would have loved to see more of your work through the challenges.

Good luck in all you do!

8:56 PM  
Blogger Acadine said...

You're allowed sadness, don't you know? Go ahead, take all the time you need to feel it, too. Know why? Because if you stuff it away it's just unfinished business you'll have to deal with later.

But when times up, it's up, and nobody but you should decide that. Sounds like you're at that point.

I see here you've asked us to share our journeys with you. You know what, Malan, that's a very unique request in the blogging world, let me tell you!
So, I just want to say how sweet of you to ask. But, for me, it'll have to be another time, another place, perhaps. I'm just stopping in to say hello for now. Goodness! Seems you've made quite an unforgettable impression if the PR message boards are to be taken seriously!

I'll check in again soon. In the meantime, enjoy your journey....yes, even the sadness is absolutely okay.

Acadine

9:17 PM  

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