Saturday morning at one am

Sitting here in my smoking jacket remembering my day, How amazing it has been, I have been surrounded with love , through emails, and personal contact,thank you. I went out tonight to a small restaurant called Barbutto in the west village, the italian food there is amazing, it was a night so beautiful the sunset and summer in new york, what had happened this week? I am really excited though, I am preparing a really beautiful collection for September fashion week, this will be the show that blows all shows away, a multimedia event that no other has ever dreamed. I am concerned of my tv experience. I have to be strong and believe, it will all be amazing. I remember when I first came to New York in the 90's. I was so amazed it was so grande, in a way so different from any other city I had ever lived in, and very hard, but the city provided and I grew to be strong,not to mention the events, red carpets,galleries it has been amazing. I have suddenly become so tired, I think its carbohydrates, but dinner was amazing, I love Italian. I heard so many of your stories tonight, your lifes experiences, I am so honoured that you have shared them with me please dont give up on this, if we all try, we can make our future a beautiful place. Dont be afraid, fear keeps us from our dreams, I remember once being so ashamed of what I experienced as a child that I could not focus on my goals because there was so much pain, there is no need to ponder that, it still hurts but the brain is a muscle and like our bodies we can better our thoughts of ourselves. There is one dress I am so in love with for this collection, any woman who wears it will look like a goddess, I wonder what models I will use this season, I really would love to have linda evangelista, she is so beautiful , I remember all of those shots Steven meisel did of her in the 90's he was brilliant, I think when you find such beauty like I did in Bronwen you are so inspired it helps you grow as an artist.I remember meeting Steven a few times, I really enjoy his energy and photography, but I really love what Len prince did with me, and bruce, wow I never looked so beautiful. I always wish I had studied or mentored with someone, but my ideas were so strong I was afraid I would stop growing and lose myself in their art, which would have made me really unhappy, I got a call from my agent today, I love William Morris, well I have been approached by three other agencies after this show, I am prepared for more , I really want my show,I see how many of you are searching as I did, I want to be there for you. I would also love to dance on broadway again, I miss the theatre. I dont mind working really hard I have a great team around me that if I had to do a six month contract I could it would not hinder my designs by any means, I remember creating when all of my energies were stimulated, the work and flow was beautiful. Well this has been a huge week , maybe I will go to the beach tomorow, I find such peace in the ocean and the movement of water is so inspiring. Besides I need to be around nature right now, this week was really sad. Maybe I should sell all of my couture samples and start fresh, its great feng shui, Chin up darlings and believe you can do it and you will succeed beyond your wildest dreams.